I attempted to run a mile today, but it took me 18 minutes. I had to stop and catch my breath half way over, but I guess whats what I get for trying to sprint? Idk, I just know it took way longer than it should have. I am out of shape as fuck.

I went to the doctors today and apparently my scale is way wayyy off. All this time I thought I was 146 and stuck but apparently I’m 133 and stuck, which is infinately better than 146 but I’m still stuck and if I’m only 133 how am I still so gross looking?

Fact: I am fatter than more than half of all females my age group in the whole world. IN THE WHOLE WORLD. bjdbkjfdbkjfdbkjfds

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1AsF6Y/www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-18770328

If you feel like destroying any shred of self esteem you may or may not have had. ^^ 

If you can’t read that it says I’m fatter than 65% of girls my age for the entire planet. The whole fucking planet! 

I just realized. You see that monster on the bottom shelf there? Yeah? I lost one of those and a half. And I have another half to go. Oh my God. 

I’m finally in the 140’s. I woke up today at 147.5! I’m only 9.5 pounds away from my goal weight holy shit I thought the day would never come dnjfdkfdnfd Pretty sure this 2468 thing definitely got me over my plateau. Hopefully I can survive my pastry class tonight, I think we’re making scones and I have so much love for scones.

I’ve still got this paunchy thing going on on my gut area, but 10 pounds can make a huge difference so we’ll see how this goes. 

I will, motivational text picture, I will. 

So, basically, we should all just go be BFFs on MyFitnessPal.

Yes?

Yes.

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/Astro_ferret 

I should invest in some vitamin and calcium gummy bears. Partly because dieting has probably taken away a lot of what I need to be getting, but mostly because I want an excuse to eat gummy bears. The calcium ones are more needed though. Weak bones kinda run in my family. I don’t want to fall down and break my neck like my grandma did. But mostly I just want gummy bears.

Day one of this 2468 thing went well. Only going to do one cycle before going back to my regular intake, I was just hoping to rid myself of this plateau and nudge my weightloss a little bit. I had some grapes, a beef oxo cube, a veggie oxo cube, and half a can of chicken and rice soup, a Dr Pepper 10, and a vanilla Coke Zero. Tomorrows my 400 day, which is pretty awesome. Hopefully I can get through it okay.

That means it’s progress picture time.

At 170:

At 160:

at 150:

I feel like theres no difference here between 160 and 150. Also my paunch won’t go away. Also I hate my hips. but seriously, I’ve only got 12 pounds left to lose and I’m going to be pissed if I still have that paunch at 138. 

One pound away from my next progress picture, oh fuck. I don’t feel like I look any different than 9 pounds ago, though. Hopefully after the next 13 pounds, when I hit my goal weight, I’ll see some difference finally.

But something as awesome as this^^^ is probably too much to hope for.